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I awoke this morning from an alarming dream. It wasn’t a
nightmare of the usual sort, but I literally dreamed I was late for an
important job interview and my only transportation was a huge moving/delivery
truck that was so heavy and cumbersome I couldn’t manage to drive it. The
truck’s engine didn’t have enough “power” or “strength” to pull the massive
load, so when woke from the dream, the truck was stalled on a hill and I had
resigned to simply miss my appointment.
After I awoke, I
immediately assigned meaning to the dream. I thought it was clear that the heavy load represented the weight of
my “destiny” and that I simply needed more “power” to pull my heavy assignment.
However, as I look deeper, there’s an element to the dream that makes me
rethink my initial interpretation.
In the dream, the truck was borrowed. The heavy load didn’t
belong to me, but to a childhood friend of mine (likely representing people and
ideas from my past). And at the end of the dream, I was devastated to have
missed such an important appointment! I kept asking myself, why didn’t I just
take “my own” car.
I’m now convinced that the truck in the dream represents the
expectations of others. I, like so
many others, have borrowed the heavy
load of other people and are simply running out of strength to carry them. In
fact, if we don’t stop before it’s too late, we’re likely to miss our
“appointment” with destiny, falling short of the best us we can be.
Indeed, this is my idea of a nightmare. My greatest fear
isn’t of monsters; it’s of missing my purpose and living a life of irrelevance
and insignificance. When I leave this earth I want to leave it in better shape
than I found it. I want my life to mean something and I want to be the very
best me I can be. And while I thought I had shed myself of the crushing
pressure to live up to others’ expectations however, as in all things, this
dream reminds me that liberation is a process that manifests itself through
many levels.
Over the next few days I think I’ll focus the blog around
finding purpose in life while identifying those things that can prevent us from
doing so. However, today I remind myself of what’s most important, and that’s
the calling of my own soul. I recommit myself to finding and doing “me” while
locating areas where I’ve let what others think or say trump my own sense of
individuality and authenticity.
I invite you to join me. Ask yourself, “Do I act certain
ways around certain people? Is my personality adjustable depending on the
crowd? Do I really want to be something, do something or have something yet
fear of what others have to say holds me back? Do I bend the truth or tinker with the facts to either downplay or
exaggerate some elements of my life? Am I hesitant to speak my truth as I know it, making excuses
why I don’t? Have I made life
decisions regarding career, romance, spirituality, etc. based upon the
expectations of friends, family or society?” For some of us, these instances
are minor, for others, if we were honest, our whole lives have been based upon
what others think, including the constant nagging desire to please someone or
live up to some abstract standard, even that of our parents.
Be free of that today. Don’t find yourself, as I did in the
dream, stalled while forfeiting your appointment with purpose. For…..
This
is not the end of your story. Your best days are not behind you; they are ahead
of you. Wake up from your bad dream; be freed from the opinions of others and
open your arms to all of the #bigthingscoming.
NOTE: If you’re new to the site it might be helpful to read
the first (introductory) post. Also, feel free to post your questions or
comments here and you can always reach out to me on Twitter @raycjordan using
the hash tag #bigthingscoming.
(Copyright,
2013, Ray Jordan)
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