“Your 20s are about finding yourself. Your 30s are about
proving yourself, but your 40s are about wanting to be left alone and not
caring about what other people say.” ~ My Therapist
Recently I spoke publicly about seeing a therapist (I wanted
to do my part in combating any stigma about seeking counseling). Granted, it
was at the suggestion of a good friend who knew I was going through a lot of transition
in several areas of life. So, he suggested I go get a “tune up.” The above quote
came from my conversation with said counselor and while it’s a generalization
it did resonate with me but with some exception.
I have spent a large (too large) portion of my life in angst
around the thoughts and expectations of others. As a typical oldest child overachiever,
my “role” in the family was to balance the system by being a do-gooder. Somehow
in my young mind, if I performed well or behaved perfectly, I could fix the
dysfunction of my family. While as an adult I can intellectually understand this
is not true I have to admit that old habits die hard. So, as I enter a new
decade I have a newfound commitment to being authentic, following the desire of
my own heart and living my best life.
One of the most surprising parts of this new decade and my
new commitment is self-discovery.
Yes, our 20s may be about finding ourselves, but for me (and I can imagine for
many of you) that self-discovery doesn’t end there. I have been stunned by simple
things I have come to know about myself recently. I have said multiple time, “I
can’t believe I didn’t know that about myself” or “Duh! Of course that’s what I
like/want!”
There is a strong impulse within American society to conform,
be uniform and shut up and go along to get along. A lot of this is connected to
our unhealthy obsession with capitalism and materialism and the need of the capitalist
machine to line us up like mindless sheep led to the slaughter in order to fuel
the retail economy. However, I have come to believe that the risk of being
authentic is worth any possible consequences.
This blog, however, isn’t just about me. I wonder which ways
you have quenched the spirit of your
soul in order to conform. What ways have you listened to the voices of the
peanut gallery instead of following your
own passion and heart’s desire? Personally, I have oft wondered what I would be
or what my life would be if I had had the appropriate love and support to free
me to be me. Nevertheless, the woudla-coulda-shouldas help no one. All any of
us have is the now. So, my commitment is to really learn myself while also freeing
myself to fully embrace the person I find.
My grandmother was fond of making the distinction between
living and merely existing. Friends, unequivocally I want to LIVE!! Live my
best life and as far I know my only one. Don’t you? Yet, to do so I think we
must fully face the obstacles that prevent us from following this path. Underneath
it all I wonder what mental, emotional and/or spiritual impulses prevent us from
being our truest self. What are we so afraid of? Is it that we’re afraid of where
our deepest passions might lead us? What they could lead us to do and risks they
might lead us to take?
This I know for sure. There is something on the other side
of where we are. Listen to me and listen to me closely. This is only for those
whose restless heart KNOWS there must
be more. You are right; there is more. More love, more joy, more peace, more
excitement, more gratitude, more satisfaction, more justice, more fulfillment, more
YOU.
Don’t be afraid of you. Allow your heart to soar. Find your muse
and follow it. I certainly am. There is an expression of God that can only be
manifested through our individual lives and personalities. So, get about
expressing God through your divine self! And remember that the best is not
behind us, it's ahead of us and there are #bigthingscoming.
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